rockridgecattle
Well-known member
I went. Part of me is glad i went to the celebration. Stayed with brother #1 and we are ok. That is why i am glad i went.
I am raw with anger, and hurt, and now need to deal with the fact that my mother did not love me and brother #1. It was evident in more than one way and the shots from the grave were loud and clear. I would say more but i have bawled enough for a life time. I cry in secret so no one sees the hurt. I did not make a spectical of myself at this thing. I went with my head high, my opinions to my self even though i wanted to say a few words.
Thank you for all your words of encouragment and advice. I weighed it all very carefully...the purse strings are cut...
I am raw with anger, and hurt, and now need to deal with the fact that my mother did not love me and brother #1. It was evident in more than one way and the shots from the grave were loud and clear. I would say more but i have bawled enough for a life time. I cry in secret so no one sees the hurt. I did not make a spectical of myself at this thing. I went with my head high, my opinions to my self even though i wanted to say a few words.
Thank you for all your words of encouragment and advice. I weighed it all very carefully...the purse strings are cut...