RR, It sounds like your Mom's been sick for a long time. I am going to give you some advise from someone who has been there.
Some how you have to find the strength to forgive her. You have to tell her that you love her, you are sorry that you hurt her and you must tell her you forgive her. She may never come to see your side, she may be angry, but try to remember she is ill, if not from the ALS, the alcoholism.
She will die, and you will never forgive yourself. It sounds like you carry a lot of hurt now, but if you miss the chance to speak the words of love and forgiveness, you will add this to all your hurts and will never have a chance to fix it. Don't add to your burden. Give it to God. Ask for strength. You are in my prayers.
