Fear of failure, but really just life in general. I see a lot of kids and adults who have severe debilitating diseases that are very up-beat and loving life even with everything that is going wrong for them. I'll always remember a woman who came into the hospital where I was doing my graduate training . She had the late stage of ms and was confined to a wheelchair. She had developed pneumonia and was not in good shape. Still, with her severe symptoms, she was very upbeat. I remember things weren't going good for me that day for what ever dumb reason, and I started talking to her and quickly became very ashamed of myself. She was so thankful to have ONE more day with her kids and family. I stayed with that lady all night talking with her and her scared kids/husband, (my shift was over the day before but I wasn't going to leave). I could not believe how calm she was, and how she calmed her kids and husband and our staff for that matter. That lady changed my life from there on out,as well as many of the other staff that met her. She knew her days were numbered, and died about a week later. When I see a perfectly healthy person complaining about some dumb crap it makes me very angry, and when I get down and need some up lifting thoughts I think of that lady I met. I've heard some pretty motivational speakers talk over the years, but all of them together wouldn't compare. I've kept in touch with her kids, and they have 100% the attitude their mother had.
Sorry for the story, but this and other similar events really get me going in the morning. I've always tried to teach my kids to not take any day for granted.
But yes, coffee does help too
Jenna
