Thank you for your condolences. Your "wind out of my sails" comment is spot on. Three months later, I am entering the anger stage of grief. It took losing a healthy older cow, last week, to bring it all to a head. She was healthy one day and down the next. Despite doing everything the vet advised, we lost a good cow. I'm tired of losing people and animals that mean a lot to me.
Space isn't an issue, but I understand your point. My plans are to build a solid herd of about 20 head. More than that would be a challenge for this independent woman, because my brother and I disagree on our approaches to managing cattle. I'm more proactive; he is more "let's wait until we have an issue and solve it" than to put in place steps to prevent issues.(vaccinations, mineral injections, etc.)
I know Herefords get dinged at the sale barn, but that is my preferred breed. I don't want to go the registered route, because I think there is a market for quality non-registered Herefords through private sales. I also realize I need to invest in quality cows and market the heck out of calves/cows to sell. I have a good bull that my father gave my brother and me to use.
I'm a kindergarten teacher by profession, and I help my brother manage my father's two herds of Hereford/ black baldy, plus a handful of red angus cattle. It totals 60 head. I know whose current and past calf is whose, which ones will freak out if pushed, and which ones lost calves or need to be culled.
I grew up around cattle, but I'm green in knowledge. In the past five years, my on-the-ground experience has skyrocketed. I've crawled under fences to bottle feed calves of protective mommas, treated a 1600 pound bull's cut foot, and helped pull calves. I've read books and have an experienced cattleman friend who doesn't discount my questions because I lack testicles. My brother discounts me because I lack testicles. He'll help me if I ask, but the bottom line is he thinks I have no business dealing with cattle. That lack of faith on his part drives me, in part, to learn all I can. The bottom line is I want to grow my herd of 8 into something impressive— not for the glory, rather for the sense of knowing I can keep animals healthy and provide an environment in which they thrive. Mostly, I love cattle.