I admire your honesty. That is one of your most worthy traits. It does appear that as ye have notable qualities, a flaw is becoming apparent. I only mention this because you are open and honest. The flaw is the same as the one you exhibited in the Black Security Guard incident- you did not feel safe! This incident involves a bad case of nerves that had you making misjudgments that could have resulted in a life altering event. May I, only because we are such good friends, suggest that you carry a flask of your favorite whiskey. When you feel a bad case of nerves coming on, take a swig.