Life really sucks sometimes. You can lose everything, divorce, job. My parents have lost 2 children. I am the last one. We dont know why these things happen. Sometimes its hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, and sometimes people can slip into that dark lonely place of depression and it can be hard to get out. The prophet Elijah had this happen to him. He let himself get alone, not good to be alone when you are depressed. The thing that I think about is that quicker then a blink of an eye you will be in front of the Lord God, with your blood on your hands, saying this is what I did with the life you gave to me. The fear of the Lord the Bible speaks of is a real and healthy thing to have. God is loving and Holy, to be Holy means He must keep justice and His word, which we will give an account for our actions. I dont want to be covered by my blood on that day, only the blood of His Son. I have done some things in my life that only that blood can cover.