inyati13
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Dad would turn 91 this month. He died in March. I picked him up at the nursing home in early March for his last trip to the farm. He was on a rebound from the Clostridial bug that he battled. He looked small on the bench seat of the Ford pickup. His face was white and pasty. He held his arms and hands in his lap like they were no longer useful but still attached to a body that had betrayed him. I ask him how he felt. He said, "Not the best." I looked across at him several times as we made the short drive to the farm. He said, "I want to ask you, Ron, have I been a good Dad." I said of course you have, why would you ask me that. I just want to be sure I was a good dad to my kids. I know I could have done better but I hope you kids don't hold anything against me. I said Dad, I talk to all of them and I have never heard anyone of us say you were a bad father. He said, I am 90 years old. I know I won't go much longer. I would like to see Mom and be with my brothers. And I want to see Pop again. I said, "Why would you think you won't?" He was silent for a while and looked straight ahead. With an an effort, he slowly turned his head toward me and said, "I worry that I have been good enough. I have never understood how a God could allow all that goes on. How he could allow little kids to be hurt and hungry. I just always had that in my mind." We were both silent for the rest of the trip.
The preacher who spoke at Dad's funeral said Dad ask him onetime if he was a good man. The preacher said, I told my friend Bob, you may not be the best man but there are none any better.
The preacher who spoke at Dad's funeral said Dad ask him onetime if he was a good man. The preacher said, I told my friend Bob, you may not be the best man but there are none any better.