Nesikep
Well-known member
I've about had it with living here, the work to reward ratio (not speaking of just money) is getting mighty thin, and in particular the old man is overbearing. Long story short, I'm pushing 40, have no family, so I'm starting to not see the point of owning a beautiful piece of land for the security of my children.. all the while being treated like an idiot from above, We all have our faults no doubt, but I'm tired of each one of mine being pointed out to me without a balance. Yeah, I know this whole self esteem movement is ludicrous, self esteem comes from within.. but it darned well can be extinguished from outside with continuous demeaning.. It's just never going to change either. I'm tired of the endless dangled carrot of "This place is yours" one minute, and the next is "If you don't do this or that, I sell the farm".. I'm tired of publicly being called the "manager", when I in fact have zero authority over anything... With the politics my dad is into, and loves to talk about, I can't even invite friends over anymore, the few I have left that haven't been scared off.
So my options here are to just outlive my old man out of spite and take my lumps for another ~10-25? years.. accepting that nothing that matters to me matters to anyone else, or to cut my losses (perhaps 10-25 years too late) and figure something else out.. I'm not a guy who needs a lot.. 3 squares and a roof, and a beer on friday nights.. And a couple cows.
The other.. well.. Who needs a farm hand with a few cows tagging along?
I can't believe I'm posting this, I'm usually a very private person about what goes on in my life, I'm just at my wits end
So my options here are to just outlive my old man out of spite and take my lumps for another ~10-25? years.. accepting that nothing that matters to me matters to anyone else, or to cut my losses (perhaps 10-25 years too late) and figure something else out.. I'm not a guy who needs a lot.. 3 squares and a roof, and a beer on friday nights.. And a couple cows.
The other.. well.. Who needs a farm hand with a few cows tagging along?
I can't believe I'm posting this, I'm usually a very private person about what goes on in my life, I'm just at my wits end